The mountain was covered in mud, and Jun Xu couldn’t help but curse. Her feet became heavier and heavier as she walked, and her clothes were covered in stains. She guessed that her face was also covered in black and white. If she accidentally tugged on a branch, she would get wet, and she had to use her lightness of foot to run in the rain.
There was the smell of water ahead, and Junxu wiped her face. At the moment, she was anxious as hell, and her eyes must have been glowing with anger, but her head was still clear. She had been walking for a few hours, and the sun was shining overhead, but unfortunately there was not the slightest bit of warmth in these deep mountains and old forests, and she was so cold that her fingers were numb.
Her face was wet and her lips were chapped. Junxu thought, if Xiao Ran were here, she would be just like her. She naturally had no mood to drink water while looking for someone, but lost Xiao Ran might not necessarily be the case.
She walked back in the direction from which the smell of water came, stumbling over her feet. Gradually, the soil under her feet became soft. Then she saw a large expanse of snow-white pear blossoms. Junxu froze for a moment, and then she saw a white mass lying under a pear tree in the distance. She darted over there as fast as she could on tiptoe. Sure enough, it was Xiao Ran!
Next to her white jade-like face were her black hair and eyelashes. Junxu felt her fingers grow even colder, and she trembled as she reached out to touch Xiao Ran’s nose. Feeling the warm breath, Junxu felt a little suffocated, and she let out a big sigh of relief. Her forehead felt cold, and she wiped it, only to find that she was sweating all over.
Her body felt weak, and she squatted down gently, losing the strength to even lose her temper. She watched Xiao Ran breathe softly, and reached out to help her remove the fallen flowers from her head. Junxu smiled weakly, and thought, ‘Just be alive, as long as I’m alive.’
Xiao Ran woke up in the middle of the bumpy ride. As soon as she opened her eyes, she found herself on Jun Xu’s back
‘Shen Da’
‘You’re awake?’
‘Mm’
‘Do you know what I’m most afraid of?’
Xiao Ran scoffed
‘You’re still afraid? I thought you were the boss.’
‘Everyone is always afraid.’
‘Oh? Then what are you afraid of?’
‘I’m afraid of death.’
“What?’
‘When I saw my parents covered in white sheets, when I saw the bloody remains of my best friend… in the portrait. That kind of fear, do you understand? I’m afraid.‘
’…
“If they can live forever, and they want me to kill, I’ll kill; if they want me not to kill, I won’t kill; if they want my life, I’ll give it to them. If they want my love, I’ll give it to them. If they want my dignity, it’s fine, I can be trampled in the mud. As long as they don’t die, I’ll do anything, I can even give up myself.‘
’…
‘Unfortunately, death never negotiates. It’s useless for me to do anything after they’re dead. I haven’t got what I want, I’m worthless, dead or alive, it’s all the same.’
‘…
’So please take care of yourself, okay? Huh? Xiao Ran?‘
’…
As night fell, the barracks lit up with lanterns. Against the blue sky and the vast mountains, the scene was breathtaking. Xiao Ran’s tears flowed down Jun Xu’s neck and into her clothes, hot.
Jun Xu walked slowly. She hadn’t eaten all day and didn’t feel hungry. Her footsteps were a little heavy. She let Xiao Ran down in front of the tent door
“You’d better cry properly, so you don’t act so recklessly in the future!’
Feng Qin came out to greet her, slightly bowing his head and standing next to Jun Xu, gently supporting her
‘The marshal and the military doctor should eat together.’
Jun Xu frowned
‘I’ll eat by myself! Dr. Xiao, find somewhere to reflect on your actions!’
The pent-up anger finally found an outlet, except that no one was injured this time.