Before he could think of what to say, Jun Xu turned around and walked away without saying a word. Blood dripped from the broken steel blade onto the ground. Feng Qin felt as if his heart had been split open, bleeding along with Jun Xu’s wound. It just hurt like hell. He just couldn’t get close to her.
‘Shen Da!!!’
Jun Xu was speechless as Feng Qin caught up from behind and grabbed her arm
“Do you loathe me? Do you feel disgusted even looking at me?!’
Junxu’s eyes passed by Feng Qin’s ear, as if in front of her was a ball of air, Feng Qin’s hands were a little shaky
‘First… let me… bandage you… okay?’
Feng Qin’s fingers were about to tear open the clothes, when Junxu said indifferently
‘No need to trouble yourself, Xiao Ran will take care of it when we get back’
Feng Qin looked into Junxu’s eyes, the pain in the dark pupils was like the moon reflecting on the sea.
‘You know, I have no choice. Why do you have to escalate your conflict with the crown princess? !‘
’…
‘Don’t you want… us to be together?’
Junxu’s gaze gradually shifted to Feng Qin’s face. Feng Qin felt his heart suddenly gradually freeze from that gaze. Junxu’s eyes were dark and black, and the tenderness disappeared. In the boundless darkness, something gradually began to harden and become solid.
Feng Qin panicked, but didn’t know what to do. Looking at the expression of panic in Jun Xu’s eyes, he had a painful expression of a blunt knife rubbing meat.
Feng Qin stiffly opened his hand and pressed on Jun Xu’s acupoints to stop the bleeding. He gently embraced her, firmly holding her palm in his own. At this moment, although they were both in each other’s arms, it was different from before. In the past, Jun Xu would refuse and frown, but later she would embrace and smile, giving a feeling of fullness.
But now, she seemed to be holding a piece of ice, not breathing, not beating, gradually melting into water with his body temperature and disappearing. Feng Qin leaned his head on Jun Xu’s shoulder, and tears slowly flowed down Jun Xu’s wound and into her heart.
In the darkness, Jun Xu let out a deep sigh, slowly closed her eyes, and gently stroked Feng Qin’s back.
It’s over. This relationship should end. It should never have happened. It should never have grown. It should never have faltered. It should have been just admiration, just fondness, just weakness. Just seeing his smile, seeing his eyes, it’s as if they can move my emotions. However, this is not love, because Junxu is still Junxu.
If it is not love, it can be broken off. Junx gently hugged Feng Qin, feeling the warmth of his body slowly transfer to him. His breath lingered in his ears, and he became accustomed to his scent, his voice, his touch, and sharing emotional fluctuations with him. He was happy because of him, and annoyed because of him. However, this was still not Junx’s love.
Junx closed his eyes and felt the two hearts gradually beating in unison, slowly calming down.
Breaking off a relationship is like breaking off a hair, but breaking off love is almost like breaking off a life.
You and I may have affection, but we have no love.