Junxu, unable to cry, is only becoming more and more tired of realising what it means to be insignificant.
Greed, anger, ignorance, craving, not getting what one wants, resentment and hostility, love and separation. Junxu is too obsessed. After she saw the impermanence of life and death, she came back and devoted herself to taking care of her mother. However, her mother still left, as did her father.
In the surging flow of people, there were no longer any familiar faces or feelings that Junxu cared about. It seemed as if she was an unnecessary existence in this world. It turned out that you don’t hold on to what you want just because you don’t want to let go of anything. What you lose, you will eventually lose. Even if you give up everything, you still don’t have the capital to bargain with the heavens.
Between heaven and earth, before fate, what kind of person are you, Junxu?
Junxu smiled with her eyes closed. Her voice was not loud, and her expression was even more despondent than if she were crying. It turned out that she had thought she was the kite and her parents were the strings. Now she understood that her parents were actually the kite and she was the string. The kite had flown away, so what value did she have? Having abandoned all hope and desire, she just wanted to quietly be with the person she loved. She, Junxu, was really arrogant, deluding herself into thinking that time would stop for her!
Not only is she foolish, she’s also stupid!
In the quiet café, the sound of a woman crying or laughing echoed, as if it were a miserable scene from hell. Dong Xiao’s body was covered in goosebumps, and his back felt cold. Junxu wasn’t crying, she was laughing, laughing uncontrollably.
‘You… you… you, Junxu!‘
Junxu seemed to have laughed herself out of breath, took a long breath, leaned back in her chair and looked at Dong Xiao.
’Goodbye.”
Dong Xiao was shocked. Junxu’s face was a little blurry in the golden sunlight, and an unknown horror surged in her eyes. A murderous aura quietly flowed out, as if there was an unimaginable surge of power beneath the quiet. Dong Xiao’s muscles were twitching all over his body. He wanted to quickly get away from this place and this person, but he froze in place, unable to even look away.
‘Go.’
Jun Xu’s left hand, which was placed by her side, involuntarily curled up at the knuckles. She now really wanted to tear someone’s throat out, let the hot blood and flesh splatter all over her, and then howl and vomit in the midst of the still fresh, quivering, fishy mass of flesh.
A feeling of destruction came over her, Dong Xiao’s face contorted in her vision, becoming strange and disgusting to her. She hated, hated this world that took away her small and only happiness.
Junxu moved her lips, but no sound came out. Hot sweat evaporated from her body, her mind began to become confused, and the most primitive desire to kill in humans kept rising and screaming. Junxu felt like she was about to go crazy.
Who is running in the dark tunnel? Who is crying in the dark world? Who is trying to find support in the dark? Junxu couldn’t help but follow the footsteps
Don’t go… I can hear… the sound of blood flowing in you… the sound of breathing… the sound of your heartbeat… It’s so noisy, why… can’t you stop…
The shrill cry of a child irritated Junxu, who frowned. Stop running… Ah
the child stopped running and called softly. Junxu couldn’t hear clearly, so she leaned closer. The child suddenly turned his face back, his pale little face was extremely familiar, and Junxu froze. She squinted her eyes and thought back
Suddenly, it felt as if the ground had split beneath her feet. Junxu suddenly opened her eyes wide and found that she was still sitting in the chair in the coffee shop. Dong Xiao, who was sitting across from her, had disappeared without a trace.
She felt weak and sore, so tired that she could hardly breathe.
The café owner sat down gently opposite Junxu and handed her a glass of water. It was clear and transparent in the light, and Junxu stared at the glowing glass as she held her head in her hands.
‘Xu, you should see a psychologist.’
‘…
’Xu, I think… you can’t always control yourself.’
‘Junxu?‘
Junxu blinked
’I think I’ve gone schizophrenic… I hear voices and see things‘
’Junxu, I know…‘
’No need‘
The beautiful boss frowned in disapproval
’Junxu!‘
Junxu sighed with a smile
’It’s fate‘
’Junxu, you know I don’t like hearing this’
‘I have been loved and spoiled by my parents, loved and spoiled by my master, my brothers and friends, protected, given up, rejected, gained, lost, at peace, and at war. The heavens don’t owe me anything, it’s just that I can’t let go and can’t think straight.‘
’Junxu‘
’It is inevitable to be entangled in grudges and love affairs when you are in the world. I also want to escape to happiness alone, but I am in pain.’
‘…
‘While my parents are still alive, I can refuse my brother without hesitation. I have always been a selfish person and will not give up happiness for others.’
‘You said that you are not obliged to go.’
Junxu narrowed his eyes and smiled softly.
‘Because I defeated everyone by leaving, I broke out on my own.’
‘Now you…’
‘I’m going.’
‘Why?’
“I want to.’
The beautiful boss sighed, and the atmosphere became tense.
‘Sell this place tomorrow, and we…’
‘No, no, I mean, I’m going, not we.’
The beautiful boss slammed her hand on the table.
‘Junxu!!!’
“We are the only two who survived, and in the future, you are the only one who will survive. At the time, you didn’t want to go, and you must have had your own reasons. Today, it’s not that you want to go, it’s that I want to go, and you don’t need to go with me. Either way, one of us will die, and if we go together, we will both die. There’s no difference in the end.’