Feng Qin has stayed away from Junxu for the past two days. He went back to the Eastern Palace for a visit, and when he returned, he was shocked to find that the other person could also be depressed. He has lain in bed for so many days, and the pain has made his heart throb. He can’t help but guard her, look at her, and stay with her, suppressing the despicable hope in his heart. If this is how life will be, it’s fine.
He actually hoped that person would lose their wings and ambition, and be locked to him for the rest of their lives. Was desire such a terrible thing? He could even forget the tears that person shed on him, and was obsessed with the supple body and sweet fragrance of her as she lay on top of him.
Feng Qin began to fear himself. Countless men hoped that their wives would only have eyes for them, never leave their side, and shower them with sweet nothings and every kind of care. He didn’t think he would be like that, but…
He had foolishly nurtured such hope, and that hope had grown tenaciously despite his best efforts to eradicate it. He began to fear for himself. Since Junxu had started to get busy, he would not appear in front of her and gradually drifted away.
She was proud, confident, and full of spirit, leading a group of fierce soldiers all the way through the dust. Yes, some people are born so uninhibited. Who could bear to tie her up and make her a meek wife who does nothing all day?
Feng Qin asked himself, would I have the heart to do so? For a lifetime, for a lifetime, would you be willing to take away the sharpness of such a person, to let them sink into the vicissitudes of life and submit obediently? Would you be willing to confine such a person, who is followed by thousands and laughs proudly in the world, to a corner of the capital, where they have to compete with each other all day long and live in constant fear?
In that case, it is better to let go. Watching over someone is also a kind of love, Feng Qin smiled, a kind of love that belongs to Feng Qin.
One day, two days, Junxu didn’t look for him. The first two days were really hard to bear, but after a few days, he slowly began to adapt. Feng Qin then got used to sitting quietly on his horse, staring into the distance.
A woman’s heart is too big, and how can romantic love become her focus of everything, let alone someone like Junxu. Unexpectedly, as soon as he left the tent today, Jinglan mysteriously gave him an envelope. Feng Qin’s eyebrows habitually furrowed
Junxu wanted him to go to Fenghuangshan, not as an invitation, but as a military order!
The morning Phoenix Mountain was filled with smoke, and the posture was myriad. Feng Qin was sweating profusely. He galloped on the trail, the hooves of his horse splashing gravel. Feng Qin leaned over the horse’s back, with the low-hanging branches brushing past his back and shaking off countless drops of dew.
When they reached the marked point on the map, Feng Qin dismounted, threw off the reins, and ran up the hill, but when he saw the brilliant phoenix flowers, he stopped in his tracks
Junxu, dressed in white, was leaning against the phoenix flower bush. The reddish-purple flowers were as splendid as clouds and flames above her head. There were four of them, their intertwining branches blooming fearfully even though the season had passed.
Junxu had not tied her hair up; her long black hair wound down as if embracing the ground. She did not look at Feng Qin, but just tilted her head back, hugged her knees, and looked at the phoenix flowers above her head with her hands as cold as ice.
‘A long, long time ago, someone told me that love requires sacrifice. I never give a little, never trust, never rely on anyone, and refuse to let anyone get close. I always turn around, leaving myself a million escape routes, and then walk away.‘
’I’m such an asshole, aren’t I?”
The eyes that reflected the phoenix flowers slowly turned, and gradually Feng Qin saw their reflection in them.
‘I have never let love affairs distract me, and my master praised me for it. But he didn’t say anything, he just looked at me quietly.
When I look at you quietly, I know what that feels like.‘
’I saw you standing on the hill far away on horseback, looking at me, and I felt… lonely, so lonely.‘
Slowly, Junxu’s hand touched the place of her heart.
’Here, it hurts.’
‘I know, it’s best if we don’t love each other.‘
’Love is not everything to you, nor to me. I know that after you confessed to the murders of those two people, your brother will be punished in what way. I know that you will hate yourself and hate me. Otherwise, even if you want to stop me from killing Li Qiuhu, you would not have drawn your sword and hurt me.‘
’I know, in that kind of environment, what price your brother had to pay to ensure your innocence.‘
’Feng Qin, do you still love me?’
Feng Qin looked at Junxu’s long hair, which was slightly trembling in the wind, and her eyes reflected the pale morning light like water.
‘What if I love you, what then?’
Junxu stood up gently, walked up to Feng Qin, and took his hand
‘The army marched, and they couldn’t wait for the phoenix flowers to bloom, but they still bloomed.’
‘So what does that mean?’
‘It means that, for many things, if you try your best, it might be possible.’
“We can’t gamble on this possibility.’
‘If, with everything I have, I exchange it for your love, can you gamble with me on this maybe?‘
’If we lose…‘
’If we lose, I’ll have nothing, you just need to… remember me.‘
’If we win, you…‘
’If we win, you’ll be the only one in my life.‘
’Shenda, your love is too heavy.”
Junxu smiled, gazing at Feng Qin
‘Wanna bet?‘
’Love is invisible and intangible, so how do you know if you love someone or not?‘
’To me, as long as Xiao Ran is alive, even if I die, I know you love me.‘
’…You…‘
’To you, I’ve removed all my defences and put everything in your hands.”
Feng Qin looked up in shock, his eyes wide. Jun Xu smiled and kissed his bridge of the nose
‘First, my name is not Shen Da, it’s Jun Xu.‘
Feng Qin’s body trembled violently, and his eyes widened in disbelief
’Second, this body is the Da Qin princess who died in Yizhou City.‘
He gazed into Feng Qin’s eyes
’Third, the original princess is dead, and I am a soul from another world. When I was alive, I was also called Jun Xu.’
Feng Qin’s gaze had already begun to waver. Jun Xu gently took his hand and kissed the palm of it
‘It’s just a common reincarnation.’
‘You…why…tell me.’
‘In that case, everything about me is up to you. As long as you ask, I will never lie.’
‘I…does Xiao Ran know?’
‘She doesn’t.’
“Feng Qin, do you still love me?’
‘…
Junxu raised an eyebrow and let go of his hand
‘Forget it, don’t force yourself. I’m tired, I’m going to go sleep under the flowers for a while. You go back first.’
Feng Qin left, and Junxu felt a little dizzy from the blood loss. The flame trees were full of scarlet flowers, flowing with the same blood as her, as if vibrating with a heartbeat. Sleepiness hit, and Junxu closed her eyes with a wry smile. This first big gamble didn’t seem to have been very successful.